I haven't written in so long.  I don't even know where to start or much what to say.  My birthday was yesterday and as I do every year, I try to celebrate.  I chose to celebrate tonight.   I had some drinks and I am feeling good, but I am coming down from my high now and it is time to rest.  A lot has been going on with me and my body and as always I don't understand it.   I started bleeding out of control again on Friday.   I am still bleeding but I started my birth control back up so it has been less.  The pain was so severe.  I have never had a time like that where I was bleeding so bad when I was so tired.  I slept so much.  When I was awake all I wanted to do was sleep to take the pain away.   I just had surgery and I don't know why my body is doing this.   I hope it stops for good but that remains to be seen.  Anyway, I am going to go relax and watch some TV and probably eat.   That has been off track again too. My eating.   I don't know if I can ever stick to a diet.  Oh well.