I am having a colonopscy tomorrow and I am having a lot of anxiety for some reason.   I am not worried about tomorrow, well maybe a little bit but I just wanna get the shitting over with ASAP!  I have been depressed lately but when Ed is home I seem to be happy.  It's just when I am by myself I seem to be down.  I also seem to be bored often too even though I have a lot of chores to do.  I hope I can pull myself out of my funk and try to LIVE again.  I joined Weight Watchers it seems like wow, almost a month ago and I have only been to one meeting.  I think I am losing weight though.  Not a lot, but maybe just a little.  I am eating better however and much much less.  Since we got a new bed my back is hurting much less too.  I am sleeping in it way to much though.  I don't know what else to write at this moment but I found some cool journal prompts on Pinterest that I am going to try.